Truly blessed

Today, I got a call that showed me just how truly blessed I am. As you know, this month is the anniversary of my brother, Rusty's death. It's been a little hard for me to cope. I keep telling myself, 'If I had only found them sooner, I would have gotten to know him'. And there are days that I feel like I really screwed it up. This past week has been a real eye opener for me. I gave a talk at church that was based somewhat on service. While preparing my talk, I realized just how much service I received after I broke my leg, and after both surgeries. Suddenly, things were a bit brighter. After my talk, several people came up to me to tell me how wonderful my talk was. Things got a little brighter. My brother in law came over Monday to pick up his dog, and we talked for a bit. Things got a little brighter. I went to Dr. Garcia to start my weight loss plan and change of lifestyle. I was told that I am healthy and on the right track and mindset. A prayer was answered. Things got a little brighter. Last night, in the limbo between sleep and alertness, I heard a terrifying voice from my past calling my name. I freaked out and start sobbing. My husband was right there. He stroked my hair until I was awake enough to realize that this person couldn't hurt me. Things got a little brighter. I talked to my dad this morning and got his approval to do my brothers work. Things got a little brighter. By the time I got this call, I was thinking that I might be able to make it through this anniversary without melting down. So, this call came. I was walking in my door from going shopping with my mother in law (who has been an excellent support through this). My phone was ringing. I picked it up. The voice on the other end said,'This is Miss Grace (name changed for those who I don't know that read this blog). We got the approval through the school board to hire you. Would you be able to come in tomorrow so we can get started on your background check and your fingerprints?' It was all I could do not to start crying right then. I was shaking and dropped my phone, causing me to accidentally hang up on her. Keep in mind, this is the school Princess goes to, so I really wanted to work here. I immediately said yes and called Princesses mom. Then my mom. Then my husband. Then I posted it on Facebook. The overwhelming support I have gotten from my family and friends is enough to make me start crying again. I know I am very emotional. I feel like this is Gods way of saying, 'Yes you do not have your brother on earth right now, but look at all the things you do have. You are not alone. You are loved and cared for.' I have been praying for comfort for a very long time now. My Heavenly Father has answered my prayers. I just want to share that with everyone I love!